God's Help

I gave you a package

Saying “handle with care”

It was my heart
With wounds and tears

I said it was damaged

But was all I had
I ask that you care for it
Not treat it bad

A big step that was

It was my best
I opened old wounds
Naked I stood the test

This gentle giant

I grew to love
Kind and caring
Angel from above

With faith I let down
Those painful thick walls
Exposed myself
Bearing truth of it all

Out of the blue

Like a bolt of light
Came fury, deceit
Ready to fight

Lost in the rage

Caught blind sided
I froze in my footsteps
So undecided

What happened

Where did he go
That man that I loved
Not long ago

The chains came down
The locks were tightened
Time and time again
I became frightened

What did he want

What didn’t I know
Where was my man
What a low blow
 
So words were spoken
Promises were made
Again I listened to
New plans he made

The time became strained
The distrust in his eyes
I had done nothing
No sin, no lies

Hear me he said

But which words do I listen
As he pounds me down
Tears glisten

The past rang true

Only was it his or mine
What caused his rage
By fear I was blind

Help us God

To trust Your plan
For joining or not
This woman and Man

May our hearts beat

At a normal pace
And hear your message
And respond with Grace

What Defines Us

Just cleaning out some poetry I have written over the last 6 months and never found the time to share.

What defines me, who am I
When my children are adults, when all I know is "I"

What defines my children, now they are grown
Do they fit the picture I had for them all along

What defines happiness, What defines right or wrong
Is it their dance or is it my song

What defines me, did I do well
Is their life a vision of my hell

What defines us, who are we
Depends on the eyes through which we see

What defines me, I know it is true
It is all about me, not about you

Where's The Key

Sometimes the key to unlock the mystery is so simple....right out in front of us...yet so unattainable.


Where's the key
That unlocks our hearts
That keeps us together
And not apart

Where's the key
That unlocks the mystery
Of a new life
Not an old history

Where's the key
That removes our sorrow
And replaces it
With a bright tomorrow

Where's the key
You know the one
That unlocks our joy
Where the moon is hung

Where is the key
Know where it hides
Behind old stories
And self told lies

Where's the key
Not up, down or above
It was here all along
In our hearts' love

That I May Grow

I am complex, I am simple
I need space that I may grow

Hold my hand, walk beside me
Or fall behind and let it go

Not venturing far, no need for concern
Just learning and growing is all I yearn

No box will I fit, the norm I will never be
Just love me as I am, have no concern for me

Like a delicate flower I need the sun
The rain and the earth just to bloom

I spread my wings and fly away
Not too far as I'm here to stay

I need my roots os that I may grow
And have a home that I know

I'll fly away but shall return
As your love is that most I yearn

Like a delicate flower needs the sun, the rain
The earth and space just to grow

I need your trust, your undying love
Supporting me as I go!

Contradictions

Here is another one that did not make the cut but felt worthy of putting here for all to enjoy...Unfortunately only one poem was allowed to be printed.

Contradictions

My heart races

When I think of love

The shattering of glass

Inside a dove

The beauty and the beast

The good and the bad

Things that make me happy

Things that make me sad

Having before me the sky

So blue and vast and clear

I shake and I tremble

With thoughts of  love and fear

My heart stirs and I move an inch

Forward I lean and back again

The glass has crumbled on the floor

Is it love and will love win

The dove flies away

Fluttering its wings

Naked I stand

A wounded human being

The beat of my heart

I hear in my ears

A smile on my face

In forward gear

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For You

This is the first poem that came to me last night while in that "mode" in the middle of the night to write.  It is about where I am in my life right now.....learning to live, love and be happier...when I already thought I was. Enjoy
 

For You

I see your smile light up your face

When you say, mine or your place

I want to step up but I feel pulled back

Still afraid I’ll fall in the crack

You stretch out your hand and reach for mine

You say come here things will be fine

I step your way and then I shutter

My heart does flips. It begins to flutter

The past is a thing we all seem to know

That it belongs way down below

Not to hold us back from the happy times

That seems to keep you from being mine

So I step again toward your hand

I close my eyes but feel quick sand

Oh why, dear heart can’t you just allow

Me to step into his heart somehow

I reach out. I want to take hold

I feel quite giddy. I feel quite bold

I take a step.  Just one more

As I ease myself through that door

Then low and behold I find you there

That smile I know that says I care

And the air moves around my soul

As I realize I took hold

Where am I now that I’ve said okay

Still right here starting a brand new day

Your smile is still there.  It lights up your face

Your hand now holds my heart in place

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Meditation

Recently I had to write a poem for my participation in Sibella magazine. I am not a poet on demand. The original instructions said the poem should be written in a certain time period however the day before I thought it was to start I receive and email saying that day was the last day.  Well, knowing myself well, I muddled through my day getting other paper work out of the way.  Went to bed with an empty mind asking that the poems arrive.....I wrote 2 at midnight and when I tried to fall back to sleep I struggled. I meditated to obtain an empty space and this poem is the poem that came, that will be in the next edition of Sibella (an online magazine for women for poetry and artwork). Enjoy

    Meditation

I only know what I know

Until I decide I want to let go

And visit that place deep within

Hiding the new life I want to begin

Taking a deep breath I slide down under

To a place without all the noise and thunder

Where sound is nil, sweet, soft or low

And everything is seen through a soft glow

New beginnings of mundane things

Change within my very own veins

Possibilities before my same eyes

Seem to fall from a now blue sky

Immersing myself deep in that place

Where darkness usually holds the space

And feel the smile that covers me now

And know everything begins with wow

Love, birds, flowers, and other things

Seem to blossom and begin to sing

What once was mundane as seen through a cloud

Is clear, exciting and right here, right now

Now I still only know what I know

Except that when I decide to let go

I can visit a place that is deep within

And a new slice of life will soon begin